Have had a rough few days. Up through Tuesday I was basically fine. In fact, I mentioned to BF on Monday evening that I had actually felt "good" that day and Sunday. I wasn't as up on Tuesday but I still felt fine.
Tuesday night though I barely slept and felt really awful all day. Wednesday the same. Having what my therapist calls "irrational beliefs" that seem like they are quite rational and certainly backed up by plenty of evidence. Reading a bit of a depression book which I can follow intellectually but can't apply to my own situation because I just feel like what I am thinking is the truth. So I'll keep trying and trying.